Help Creature Cosmetics!

Recently, I discovered this small make-up company when I was searching for Universal Monsters themed palettes. They are relatively small, owned and run by two people, and I LOVE their products. Recent disaster damage (the company is located in Georgia) is pushing them out of their old office and in need of a new one. 

Currently, they have a GoFundMe where you can donate money or they may have specialty items on their website for funds too. I donated and bought an item to help out. I don't have push in social media because it, personally, does not mean much to me. BUT I really love niche stuff like this company and look forward to their next collaboration or themes. 

Please check it out! Send all the creepy, crawly love their way too!

The Crow I Lullaby

Beware of Sugar Alcohol!

When you use the words "sugar" and "alcohol" separately they are indulgent and quite fun to consume on occasion but when put together they are a nightmare. Now if one has not looked into this  chemical additive or whatever the hell it really is, it is not something one should put in their mouth. The only reason I know (aside from experience) is from a nutritionist when I was recommended to see one a long time ago. I remember buying sugar-free ice cream followed by unholy digestive sickness. When I told this person that she told me "Stay away from sugar alcohol, it will only make you sick" or "You cannot eat a whole lot of something with sugar alcohol in it". I avoid the stuff as much I can and everyone else should too!

It will give a person indigestion, gas, and diarrhea, not something anyone wants to experience. Mostly sugar alcohol is in sugar-free products and you might be thinking why would I eat sugar free? I thought I was eating something that was a healthy alternative, but it just hurt me instead. I'm also diabetic so I thought it would be a way to save carbs, was I wrong! The nutritionist told me to eat things as they are, don't turn to things like fat-free or sugar-free because when they remove the fat it goes into the carbohydrates and in sugar-free they substitute with sugar alcohol. It's all hooey and no one should buy that stuff, buy it as it is!

The reason I even decided to post this is my brother accidentally bought sugar-free ice cream and my mother ate some and experience what I had years ago. Stay away, it will make you sick. Although I wonder why Quaker's bars have sugar alcohol in them at all? Is it a consistency thing? Does it keep the carb count low? I don't know, it don't make any sense. It would be smarter to make granola bars from scratch, probably healthier too. I don't know if I would, I'm no Martha Stewart but it interesting to watch her cooking shows, I do learn some things. Be wary of sugar alcohol, I think I've repeated myself enough.

I'm back?

It's been a no man's land of vastness as to how long I've been away from this blog. Do people still blog? Most of the blogs I follow have stopped in their tracks and I find myself missing them from time to time. There was a time when blogs were very popular and still, people all over update them regularly, but my blogging diminished when certain blogs when poof in a very short time period. I have seven friends on here and the majority are real life friends I have but I do have a few online people that were kind enough to follow me even if they do not know me. For years I've been trying to find a place to talk with other horror fans, forums are plentiful but some have too many people. I feel like I cannot get to know anyone when so many people are shooting opinions back and forth across pages and I get swallowed up by the masses.

One of the best (and only) times I had on a forum was the one at sleepawaycampfilms.com which has been closed a long time now. There were (an estimation) of a thousand or so members, maybe not even that much, signed up but only 30 or 40 who talked daily/weekly there. I could talk in a discussion without all the member cramping and talked with some cool people. A time I felt like part of a group that enjoyed horror like myself, the ones I've joined later either had way too many people or such an established group I felt like an outsider. It is strange to say since I'm anonymous that I felt on the outside. I'm still trying to find a forum that's not too large but is in the confines of what I love genre-wise. If anyone out there has a forum like that please let me know, I would love to discuss some topics!

The last few days I've considered signing up to Devianart because I used to make graphic art but I don't do much unless I'm designing a layout or banner. I just updated the look of my blog since I am coming back for some occasional bantering and that's a much as I bother with. I've been making gifs mainly, the turds of the gif world, but I do like trying my hand at it. I just think other people use superior programs or ones made after 1998. I like my classics and I don't do enough to care for all the extra features newer Photoshop versions have, I've been there and had more issues with newer versions than my old version 7.

I've been writing stories the last few years while not on here and I haven't finished any of them. I really want to complete one story I've written and I hope I can say I have in the future. I will add my fanfiction account on here that I still use, but I might as well post my old ones below. I'm embarrassed for most of it, it's not very good, but I had more creativity then than I do now.

• https://www.fanfiction.net/u/1034653/winter-s-fever
• https://www.fanfiction.net/u/891571/glows

Don't be to harsh if you do read any of it, I was a teenager when I wrote it and most of it is completely mary sue and trope-a-licious. The current account will be on the sidebar with my other links. If I get a Deviantart account I will add that as well. 

To clear things up, I will be making future posts, probably about what I'm watching on Netflix or about a book or just random things plaguing my mind. Ya know, what I used to post on here. So until next time...

Here, Hunger Games, and Hellraiser

I am grammatical shit-tastic. I notice this as I browse old entries on my blog. Yes, I look through old entries because I get curious about what I could have been ranting about in the year 2009. I've been debating with myself if I should stop posting in this blog. It feels like a choice that really only matters to me since no one provides any feedback and, mostly I word vomit random stuff on my mind. I chose to just leave it be. There is always a chance I'll post again and I just like having my blog here, a minuet spot in the vast world wide web.

I've been reading The Hunger Games trilogy. I read the first book a while back and enjoyed it, saw the film in theaters which was a close match to the book and enjoyable too. I bought the entire series and decided to not only re-read the first novel but read it's two sequels. Currently, I am making my way through book two, Catching Fire, and never a dull moment. That's my mantra for the series in general because there is never a dull moment (or dull character for that matter) in the books. Not to mention the female lead does not whimper or swoon or somehow becomes ten times more flat on the silver screen (or that may be Jennifer Lawrence's actual talent there).

I've taken on a interest in the Hellraiser movies too. I've seen some of the sequels, possibly before I ever saw the first film that began the decade-spanning series. I read the short story "The Hellbound Heart" by Clive Barker which is the basis for Hellraiser then I watched both Hellraiser and Hellbound: Hellraiser 2 and so on with the series. I read the story in high school and liked it but I wasn't aware of how it fit in with the films. There is loads of backstory to this series I had no idea about, but naturally being the horror fan I am try to soak up as much knowledge as I can because I want to know every detail I could be missing. I continue on watching the films until I stumble upon that dreaded new one released last year or something. I've heard terrible things about it and saw a clip so I'm a little reluctant to spend my time watching it. But I will because I have to know how horrible it actually is compared to what everyone else says. I feel bad that I can't even remember what it's called and that's most likely an omen to its shit-tastic quality. (I'm starting to think that word is my "word of the day".)

Hellraiser and Hellbound are good movies - the first is an enclosed, tight-knit story while the other is an expansive one exploring other ideas in the mythos of the series. Hell on Earth was OK, but I didn't feel it bring much to the series. Bloodline was good, I thought all the back story on the lament configuration was cool. My only drawback to it was it felt like a "Pinhead in Space" movie, but really its 20% in space or the future. Inferno was OK, but it lags a lot in the middle. It had an intense ending which I suppose the slow start built up to it and the idea that hell was the fomration created in the cop's mind was great. That's as far as I've gone. Next is Deader which I saw years ago and didn't understand but I hope to not have that probably this time around. I should be able to make sense of what's going on because of understanding the history of L'Merchant and the lament configuration and the cenobites and how everything ties together.

One thing my brother told me was they make "Pinhead" into a bad guy as the films go on and on, I've noticed this to be true. It doesn't makes sense if you watch the first two films but in Hell on Earth all of a sudden he wants to take over earth and reek hell on it hence the subtitle. I liked when he was just the head of the Order that butchered and bloodied up the folks that tampered with the box. They made him a villain when he was just a victim that became something else to be. He was merely a man doing his job which doesn't make him any different from any other man (well, except the pins in the head deal). I felt him becoming the bad guy was a crap move to serve the horror genre. In the first film, Frank and Julia were the monsters for being selfish and killing people - very deserving to their ends in the films. I liked that side very much instead of the "outsider-type turned evil just because" crap.  Oh well, can't win them all I suppose.

Morganville Vampires & Final Destinations

I've been reading the "Morganville Vampires" series by Rachael Caine and it is fantastic. It's the kind of fiction I long to read when it comes to YA supernatural literature. Unfortunately, they have the worse book covers ever. Why does every cover have to have Abercrombie models on them? I understand it's a book directed at young females, but the actual text does not mirror the silly covers. I would love it if they would place stock images instead of the models, it would suit the material and make it look less campy. I've read and watched enough vampire shtick to figure out it's all about selling sex when it comes to "vampire material goods", but I'm more interested in the darker, morbid part that most general public does not see. If "Twilight" hasn't dismissed classic images of vampires and other supernatural beings, crappy book covers are the next step. (Side note: Meyers' book covers are simple stock images however the material inside is debatable. I recommend "The Host" over her other series, written a little better and the characters are very likable. Not a new story in the land of science fiction but a book I will re-read when reading supplies are low.) Really though...if I wasn't renting each MV series book separately from my local library because they are constantly checked out, I could sit and read the whole series. My favorite character is Myrnin, every time he comes around I can never figure if he is a good guy or a bad one. Love his personality quirks, makes for an interesting dialogue when things get very serious ("boring", "lull-ish") in the books.

I have Final Destination 5 here, and arguing in my head on whether its worth a watch or will I be distracted by all the CGI effects and Tony Todd's looming yet death-like voice. I didn't watch the fourth one, but I have seen the first three. I like each for their own reasons, but as they go on, they lose their quality overall. After a while it feels like I'm watching the same scenario from the original film but with interchangeable and uselessly blank characters that audiences stereotype upon the immediacy of watching it. Well, I guess it's better than thinking about the shit storm that is my life...

Putting it out there...

I'm starting to think there should be a cable channel dedicated to any horror movie made before 1990. The 90s ushered in the realism of horror, and as much as I enjoy Scream, it ruined some of the fun in horror. I liked when a horror movie didn't take itself seriously and had a basic formula attached to it. I love the predictable as much as I love the unexpected, but it's nice to just watch something you know the ending to as well.

I've been watching older horror movies on NetFlix, at least ones on instant streaming. IS doesn't carry the best selection as to what you get in the mail on DVD, but to keep one occupied for an hour and a half, most available isn't bad. I used to think any horror movie that wasn't made in the 80s wasn't worth my time, but I've seen a few 70s horror movies that were good. 70s horror has a serious nature to most of the films, and a odd darkness too. There have been some things in the 70s ones I've watched that really scared me so I'm going to continue looking for others to watch. Any suggestions are welcome if anyone wants to offer some up.

I'm really trying to open myself up to different horror movies I've never watched before. Still wondering if I should try Asian horror. The genre makes a big deal about how Asian horror is the best there is now. It's not like I doubt that there aren't ones I'd like if I gave some of them my time, but I don't think they carry the camp I need in my horror. Watching more serious horror is interesting, but it does reach its apex and I just want laugh at something macabre but over-the-top.

old xangas, bad shows & 3 ninjas

Through one sneaky reminder from a former classmate, I discovered an old Xanga journal I had - the one even older from the last one I looked at. And boy, was I unfiltered on it. Everything I was reading was something I had forgot about but it's nice to be reminded of better times. I do complain, quite too much I might add but typically it's just about how I hate school and that I'm tired. That's still going on, I just try not to mention it in every entry I bother to post.

Everyone in my house is sick or half-sick as it is. There seems to be some bugs going around but I hope not to contract anything. I hate being sick even if it's just a runny nose and a sore throat. Although laying in bed for countless hours to rest feels good, that's probably the only upside. Day time television used to be amusing, but you can't even count on it these days when you have a sick day. I used to watch awful programming like soaps and Jenny Jones. What the hell happened to Jenny Jones? I watched that all the time as a kid, my favorite episodes were when the tweens were sent off to boot camp to modify their behavior and stop pushing their wheel-chaired mothers down the steps. It surprised me how vulgar kids who've barely reached puberty can be. Well, that's nature versus nurture for you.

At this very moment, I wish I had someone to talk to. Or at least a damned e-mail or forum discussion to reply to. I'm ACTUALLY in a mood to type out or express my feelings however they are. I haven't watched the 3 Ninjas series in a while. I only count the first three so it's a trilogy in my terms, the High Noon one doesn't count on it does not have any of the original boys or much of a plot for that matter. I know, they are just kid films and they don't ever have very original ideas, but come on...that last one was farfetched and released way after the last one. By then, they should have tried to not sell the 3 Ninjas hype so far down the road, it was almost ten years since the first one came out when they released High Noon in 1998. Ugh, must go look up these films on IMDB...

Old Buffy Fiction, Vamp Flicks & Revisits

Aw, Alison you found my blog and did not inform me of this. You sneaky weasel...took me a few seconds after responding to your comment to figure out it was you.

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I unearthed a notebook I bought when I was in middle school just for writing Buffy fan fiction and I decided I'm going to start typing up all the lame stories I attempted to write about on my computer. Some ideas aren't too pathetic but my writing is bland and I have no style at all. It's mostly short sentences with lack of details, I can't believe I wrote any of it at all it's that bad. But it is a good idea to revisit early work because it's the one way to make yourself feel better about your writing. You may think you write for shit, but go read something you did ten years ago, you'll realized you learned a few things between now and then. I know I have several different notebooks with stories in them; some are fan fiction and some of them are original pieces I made up. I used to have an affinity for writing all the time, sitting in class when I should be taking notes or paying attention instead of deciding what mystical doosy Buffy Summers would be getting up to.

Tonight, I watched a OK vampire film on FearNet called "Midnight Son". It seemed low-budget but the story was tolerable. I like when some writes a vampire script with a realistic mythos behind how the vampire got to be a vampire. I know real and myth don't belong in the same sentence but vampire tales get too "fantasy" for me. The movie was about a guy that suffered from a skin condition since he was a young boy and as an adult he works as a security guard. At this time, he starts feeling off, he keeps eating but nothing fills his stomach. He gets worried and sees his doctor who thinks he may have a rare form of being anemic because physically he is malnourished even if he just ate six frozen dinners. Slowly, the guy starts craving blood, first he makes his daily run to the butcher shop for his bucket o' blood. Then, he accidentally gets a taste of human blood and he turns full blown vampire. There its twists and turns of trying to have a relationship with a coke-addled chick and skeezy, drug-runner that supplies blood to the vampire dude before ultimately being turned into one. OOPS, SPOILER ALERT...guess I should have warned ya, huh? It's good for its hour and half run so if you see it somewhere (for free) just check it out. Also, check out FearNet, that's a pretty awesome site and so is Rue Morgue. I listen to their radio podcast once and a while, thanks to my brother Nick for exposing me to it.

I'm going to start revisiting shows I haven't seen in a long time...

• Farscape - My dad and I would watch this show when I was a kid and it's been a really long time, probably a decade since I last seen an episode.
  
• Roswell - I haven't watched this show all the way through since I got in DVD a few years back. I started re-watching it last week and I'll try to continue soon.
• Battlestar Galactica - I have never watched this show before but I'd probably like it if I did. The seasons are watchable on Netflix so I'm considering it.
  
• Witchblade - I started re-watching the first season months back and I need to continue on to the second season too.
• Freddy's Nightmares - So I got a hold of this crappy TV series based off A Nightmare on Elm Street series, I watched the pilot which was boring but I need to watch the rest. It may have it's entertaining moments.
  

And I will continue watching all the stuff I am all ready and what's on air. I was going to mention on the vampire movie which vampire movies I particularly like: The Lost Boys, Subspecies Series & Vampire Journals, Vamp - I just saw this for the first time not long ago and was impressed by it, not a horrible 80s cheesy romp full of gore, it actually had substance - Interview with a Vampire and Queen of the Damned - both really different versions of Anne Rice books but I like them both. I've never read an Anne Rice novel, ever and I'm a little surprised by that. In fact, I haven't even read Bram Stoker's Dracula yet, I should REALLY get on that. I love the 30s version with Bela Lugosi, that man has the creepiest, spindly hands I've ever watched on film.

I haven't been to sleep and my heads starting to pound so I better turn in soon. I did drink a cup of coffee today and I usually post on days I do drink coffee...hence the title of my blog.

Good night, viral land of nightmarish propensity. P.S. I dare you to go to dictionary.com and see what the word of the day is. It's nice to widen the brim to your vocabulary.

My New Forum!

I created a character studies and discussions forum -

http://beneathcs.proboards.com/index.cgi

Check it out and feel free to join if any of it interests you. I'm looking for a few good posters.

Vamps are bad, bad, bad!

It's a weird place to be trapped, half way through books. I read the first three books in the Morganville Vampires series and it's a really good. I've seen people have it on their favorite list often so I decided to start reading them. The main character is a bright and smart young woman who I was excited in reading about because she isn't some meek waif that dominate loads of supernatural YA fiction. We need more Claire Danvers in the world then Bella Swans (although there are a few strengths I liked in her but they neglected to include most in the film versions)! I rather read about a female who is capable, fearful, and logical around vampires. Not every girl should go lush over a sparkly vampire (or a blood-thirsty one either). The series blends different characters who carry lives out in different levels - ghost/vampire, goth, rebel, smart chick - and seamlessly makes it all work. I feel like I could meet them in my life and be good friends with them. I also like how vampires are just bad, bad, bad, but can have depth for humane reasons. It's a better approach then most YA fiction I've read currently. I need to finish up the series because the progression is interesting how this invisible girl from nowhere becomes intertwined with all these odd supernatural problems and still maintains a life. It reminds me of Buffy the Vampire Slayer with it's array of quirky dialogue and characters that each portray a different side of the stories of each book. Michael Glass is , by far, my favorite character in the series and I suppose I have a "thing" for the protective, nice guy.

Hoping to read through books I've left on my shelf, finish, and promptly place it back in it's holder. There are few I've read half way and then put away, forget about it, and realize it still needs to be completely read from cover to cover. Once done, I'll go back to the MV series.

Christmas is coming soon and there was light snow coverage this morning. Lucky me to go trotting through it! The tree is up and the lights are hanging on the gutter of the house. Now, if only I could think of presents to buy...if I had money. It's going to be a Tiny Tim Christmas if ever there was one in my household. I don't expect gifts and I don't care to receive them. I wish I could read people better so I know what to give, some people I know are hard to please and that pisses me off. I think I'll just make some desserts instead, I'm good at that and I enjoy the work in the kitchen.

That's all, take care.

crunch fetish

Damned Halloween 50 percent off candy! I've become addicted to Crunch bars and I'm not a big fan of them...Sometimes I feel like a foodwhore. I thought of being a pastry chef, I think it would be great. I've watched those people doing cake challenges and whatnot on the Food Network, I could make fondant the rest of my life. I can't watch the Food Network anymore, it makes me hungry. I do love the how-do-they-make-it shows, especially the one hosted by Marc Summers, can't remember the title.

I sound like an obsessive, overweight weirdo...but I could talk food for ages.

trick or treat

Some random things I've enjoyed recently:

Misfits. U.K. series that I just sat and watched the two seasons on Hulu. I have seen constant fandom for this show and I didn't have a clue what it was about but I wanted to see what the fascination of it was so I went to IMDB and looked up the summary. Five juvies having to work at their community center as part of their sentencing and end up in the middle of a freak storm that zaps them with superpowers. The show could have been very bad, but from the first episode it's good. They have these powers and none of them want them - each episode something disastrous happens and the team uses their powers in some way to fix it. Kelly can hear people's thoughts, Curtis can go backwards through time, Simon can turn invisible, Alisha can make people really horny from touching her, and Nathan cannot die along with seeing ghosts.

What keeps the show from becoming horribly cliche (like it very well could have been) is the kids deal with the powers probably how I might if I ever got zapped in a lightning/hail storm. They don't take advantage of them and more or less look down on them because of the trouble they cause. Sort of similar to Skins, it depicts young adults as they really are and it's a character study show. I've noticed both shows never really overshadowed other characters but keeps them all separately important. Most shows I have watched tend to start out with every character equal and then some characters/couples/story lines get "front and center" while others turn into background noise. I really never see this with U.K. shows I've watched and I like that aspect.

Longview. A British band that had one album, Mercury, but a really good one. I first heard some of their tracks on the short-lived WB series, Tarzan but looked them up on Rhapsody later on and heard their entire album. They have an alternative pop/rock sound if I could label it anyway. There are upbeat songs and sweet ballads equally on the album. My favorite tracks are Further, Can't Explain, and If You Asked but the whole album is pretty golden. Usually use it as ambient music for when I am busy doing things. I was surprised they did not have follow-up and I'm not sure if they are even a band anymore. I did stumble upon a few of their videos. I assume they had little success in the U.K. because I never heard anything about them here in the U.S. except they were in an American television show.

Joe Jonas. I will admit I have Jonas Brothers albums and I do enjoy some of their tracks. I've also harbored a crush on Joe ever since I've heard of them though he did have some bad hair-dos (or is it hair-don'ts?) back then. So when he ventured to do a solo project I wondered what it would be and it ain't too shabby. His album, Fastlife, is some nice, upbeat dance music and his singles "See No More" and "Just in Love" are enjoyable but my favorite track is "Love Slayer", just love the idea behind it. I would love to see him act more, I saw the episode of Hot in Cleveland he appeared in. Besides, he seems to be comfortable as he is and willing to make fun of his self, I could see him in a comedy or an ensemble piece and fitting right in. Actually, it doesn't really matter what he was in, I just think he'd be good in it.


That's it really...oh, Happy Halloween since it is the day. I almost forgot! Wow, I should have talked about some scary movies or Halloween songs I like. I heard "The Blob" by the Five Blobs yesterday and it made me laugh. I like the movie but I don't remember there being some theme song for it. "Monster Mash" is another classic along with "Thriller", "House of a Thousand Corpses" by Rob Zombie is great. I love his music...I can never get enough of him or Alice Cooper. They know how to do spooky tunes really well.

Unpleasant dreams, everyone!

What the hell am I doing?

Hmm...things I have been doing lately.

Reading a story a friend wrote. I love reading stories that friends have written, I feel like I'm getting to know them better. I enjoy it much more than trying to write a story on my own. Right now, I'm in the process of editing some of my stories and re-writing some of it. Been working on outlines mostly, I come up with many ideas that I never fully divulge into an actual story. I should become an editor, but I much rather be a special effects make-up artist or costume design. I have to learn about it first, I think I would enjoy it better than anything else I have done in my life.

I'm thinking of a blog entry where I comparethe first and second seasons of "The Vampire Diaries" because after watching the second season again, it just reminds me how flippin' different they are and I would actually mind pushing into the deeper canals of the character lines on the show. Oh and for everyone that thinks Matt Donovan should be killed off the show, a big F and U for you. I've heard a few times he should have been killed instead of Jenna. Well, ya know, at least Jenna had some kind of story arc on the show, but she's more a supportive player and parents don't last long on the show. (Watch out, Alaric!) He's like Elena's quasi-stepfather which is weird when I think about it.


I love Matt, he's one of my favorite characters and I've passionately stated this before. I love him in the book and I feel like throttling the writers for not giving him more of a storyline. For goodness sake's he's still in love with Elena and they don't think to use that ever? I mean, first season they used that a little against Stefan but Matt seems harmless against a vampire. Of course, now that he knows all about what's really going on, how long is going to stay out of it? Strangely, I can imagine Katherine using him for a chew toy, but I hope it never comes to that!

Zach Roerig is great as Matt and cute as hell. Supposedly he's played a bad guy in other work and I'd like to see that. In "Masquerade" when he was being a jerk to Tyler you could see that there, but he was under compulsion. LOVE HIM! Gah, I go fangirl...ugh I'm good.

Been reading horribly strange and rude comments on my youtube videos. People arguing in the comments of videos bothers me because it has nothing to do with the video or it's about how hot someone is in it. Stupid as hell. Really, only leave a comment if it means something people, otherwise you'll get my famous eye rolling.

That's it I'm done for now.

buffy, how I remember thee...

I was just sitting here listening to Four Star Mary which got me thinking about the bronze which ultimately got me thinking about the television series, "Buffy the Vampire Slayer".

My love affair started back when FX would show re-runs of the show, first during their evening spot (5:00-6:00 p.m.) and later in the morning (6:00 & 7:00 a.m.). The first episode I ever watched was "Who Are You?" which was an awful one for me. I remember thinking Buffy was such a slut while she was grinding up against Spike in the one scene. Little did I know that wasn't Buffy, but Faith, her evil counterpart. I disliked the show after seeing just a little and all I thought to myself was "Buffy sure is sleazy..." Probably a month goes by and I'm flipping channels when what do you know? "Buffy" is on again but this time was tuned it. She was strong, opinionated, and way better than I had last seen her. The second time I watched an episode, it was "The Gift" and that's probably one of the best episodes of the entire series. Period. That episode made me look at the show as something much deeper than I gave it credit for.


So every afternoon I came home from school and watched "Buffy" in my parent's room because I didn't have a TV in my room as a kid. Besides, the first TV I did have was black and white and only got about seven or eight channels you had to turn with a dial. I loved that little TV set, but back to my story here. I came home every day and while my Mom was cooking dinner I would sit and watch the slayer kick ass. Sometimes I was even late to dinner and my family could see I was becoming obsessed. I saw the later seasons first: five, six, and seven before seeing the earlier ones. That's probably why I've always been a Spike fan and not an Angel one, but I'll take about that later on. Once I had a newer TV (color and cable!) and a VCR I would record whatever episodes I could. I figured out how many seasons and episodes they were and went so far to buy a guide, unfortunately one without season seven included. I always love reading about extras!

I started buying the seasons when I was 14 or so and season four was the first one I purchased (though not the best season) followed by the fifth, sixth, seventh. The first was a Christmas present one year and finally I purchased season two and three together. As much as I love the show, I've never shared my thoughts about it because I rarely had many people I could talk about it with. I started writing fan fiction in school when I should have been paying attention to my work. That's when I actually talked to people who knew about it. Nikki, a girl who sat in front of me in my English class, was a fan because her older sisters grew up watching it. We used to always joke about Oz's "I mock you with my monkey pants!" line. I think she even wrote it in one of my yearbooks. The other person was a girl named Jessica in my math class who saw me writing my stories. I told her what they were about one day when she asked me and she read some of what I wrote. I don't know if she was being kind or what but she said she liked it. I assume she just watched the show sporadically. I'm sure there are more fans out there than I know and I'm starting to see that since I joined a forum and chatted up a few people about it. Oh, and a turned a former best friend of mine onto Buffy too, long time ago when we were good friends. We both drooled over Spike's hotness (I'm so lame!)...strangely enough she's a big fan of "Supernatural" now and that was my next big obsession after "Buffy".

I obsessed for four years and did move on to other shows...but that will always stick out as my first obsession. There were shows I liked before but never as adamantly. Sarah Michelle Gellar is a role model to me and a great actress. I'm happy to see her return to television since it has been many years since her role as Buffy Summers. I guess my issue of Spike versus Angel has to do with the fact I think Angel is a boring character. He's too sad and dull for me. At least Spike embodies more of how I see a vampire: ravenous, cocky, and tough. I never watched the spin-off "Angel" for that simple reason albeit I did watch season five for Spike. And it was something to watch after "Buffy" ended.

Maybe I'll do some character profiles and talk about why I like (or don't like) certain parts of their personality/choices/progression.

There is a quick walk down my Buffy history....leave me comments about your first experiences with the show or if you'd like to argue some points with me, go ahead, I like a challenge.

-K

pictures

This was on the way to Mall of America in Minnesota. I love scenic pictures and I took many of them. The sky was gorgeous that day and built-in cliff foliage made it better.

Hockey is a great sport to watch live. I've only been to one game, but it was insanely loud and the crowd has such an energy. That's one sport I'd go see all the time if I could.

These are the Gossip Girl books I'm trying to plow through at the moment. I'm second to last, "Only In My Dreams", but after I'm done with this stack there are 3 more books in the series! I've enjoyed this series more than expected, but I do hate the rich, stuck-up Blair Waldorf. She's awful. I'm thinking about checking the show out and seeing if it's worth watching but I'll stick with the books for right now.

books, bromance, and broken coffee cups

I looked down at my coffee cup the other day and there was a huge chip in it. I've never seen a chipped last before, shattered - yes, and brand new - yes. I think the chipping has to be me banging the edge of the cup against the glass rotating plate in the newer (smaller) microwave because I'm not used to the height difference (or size difference). I think it would have been cooler if it actually made the cup leak but I guess I'm not that lucky to wish for a really broken coffee mug. Now you all think I'm strange, don't you?

There are some new Supernatural fiction out (coming out) that I need to read. I have the first three books they released years ago. I had no idea if they bothered making any more and I certainly enjoyed the ones I've read so I am ready for some new ones. Borders is going out of business, maybe I can get a deal on one of the books there? They never carry what I'm looking for in store and then I have difficulty finding it in store. I could just be stupid and not have any sense of direction but I think the system is whack there! I ain't too sad about them closing...obviously.


I've been watching the Glee Project even though I don't watch Glee (don't know how that figures...) and I love both Cameron and Damian. They have a fantastic bromance that I joke about every time I watch a new episode. I both love their voices too. They both share that old crooner voice like Michael Buble or Frank Sinatra but Cameron's a little lighter while Damian a bit deeper and rockier with his voice. If they don't win, they should definitely find a place in the entertainment industry because they have talent and a slice of humble pie. But mostly, they got that killer bromance!!! It's funny me using that word since I dislike it very much, but it just is what the duo is. They are that great I'm willing to use that word.

I was sitting down looking through one of many books I have laying about and I was so relieved that I was reading something I really fucking felt like reading. I always dreaded being assigned books to read whether it's several chapters or one passage. The only time I have passion for reading is when I am fully involved and/or invested in what I'm reading. I like when I get suggestions or books to borrow from friends/family. My aunt gave me a box of Alex Cross novels by James Patterson I would like to take a stab at reading all the way through to the last one. I think borrowed books let me know what kind of books people I know like and I think it speaks volumes of what they like because it's all about interests. I read lots of YA books but mostly fantasy/science fiction/horror because that's what I obsess over. But, I'm not trendy about it. I'll be roped into reading some books that way (Need to look into the Hunger Games series by Suzanne Collins, they sound reasonably interesting, doesn't mean I will be seeing the movie they won't shut up about...) but I just mostly go by cover then summary before reading it. And not to be pretentious but 9 out of 10 times I like the book better than screen adaptation. Sometimes the movie tells the story better by expanding or contracting some of the details or side plots. It's been hard to find books to get attached to and I'm always looking for new ones.

Reminds me I need to buy the last Vampire Diaries book, Midnight because Damon is human in it! I was a surprised with that happening at the end of Shadow Souls. Boy, that book was long, as in it took me forever to read. It felt like it could have been summarized in like twenty chapters but it went way past that. I just need a satisfying conclusion so maybe that's what I get. Cross ma fingers, hopin' for the best!

I'm carrying on too long, good night.

i'm taking a bite out of Teen Wolf & Stiles!

As much as I am an 80s whore, I still haven't seen the 1985 classic Teen Wolf starring Michael J. Fox (though it is cued up in on Netflix for future viewing). I've seen bits of it on television and wasn't too impressed, if I want to enjoy Fox I'd cue up Back to the Future instead. I do like Supernatural premises if you couldn't guess by looking around on my blog so it's probably just the cheese I very well expect it to be. It will be viewed all in good time (I've got Camelot to finish watching first!). Oh, I have seen Teen Wolf Too with Jason Bateman and that's bad so I have to believe that the first film is just a slightly better film. On to the segue - I have been watching the MTV series which I thought at first was just a movie for the network until I noticed it said "new series" and then I just said "OK, fine, I'll give that a chance".

This show has been getting rather wide receipted reviews which not only surprised me but pushed my interest further to check out the series. The plot lines are OK, somewhat weak but perceptive to the tween/young adult audience. Scott is your basic main character whom I've yet to see break out of his wolf-bound secret, but will probably be more diverse after the lush drama is dispensed about his hairy side. Allison is perhaps too perfect in her slight build and who is accosted by every boy on the show like the only pretty girl magnet in the school (never sure why they tend to do that to every nice girl on a show anyway...) but she's a tier above Lydia since she's just annoying. I do understand that's her character , the Queen Bee, the uptight fashionista that desperately seeks to be on the highest pedestal in the high school hierarchy. I like Jackson so far, I suppose he's the mean jock, but he comes across as a troubled teen and I connect to his plight stronger than Scott's own. Besides he's getting bullied worse than anyone else on the show, poor guy needs to be cut a break! Derek Hale is interesting as a mentor wolf and I wish they would play up on that side of Scott instead of the romance one.


Hands down, my favorite character on the show is Stiles (played by Dylan O'Brien), Scott's best friend and the werewolf aficionado of the group. Not only is he played brilliantly with deadpan and over-the-top humor but a strong, helpful hand in his friend's recent misfortunes. To me, they could have wrote his character off as being the best friend that says something stupid before running off, but he's the only one logically devising ideas and plans to protect not only himself but everyone around him (case in point, hitting Jackson in the face for suggesting bringing his father, the sheriff, to his death by giant, alpha wolf). When Scott explained he was bit by a wolf, Stiles read up and prepared himself with the reality. He didn't blindly think it was awesome, and that would have bothered me to bits, but he took the smarter approach. He reminds me a tad of Randy Meeks from the Scream series, the guy who knows everything and is using his knowledge the best way for the situation. Stiles keeps me tuned in every Monday otherwise I may have left off after the second episode. I can't stand the "what if" romance crap, he's turning into a freaking wolf, falling in love not an option.

I love the adult supporting cast as well. JR Bourne (Ginger Snaps Back. 13 Ghosts, Selling Innocence) plays Allison's father who is also a werewolf hunter along with his sister werewolf hunter played by Jill Wagner (Blade: The Series, Wipeout!) and Stiles father, the Sheriff, is played by none other than Linden Ashby (Mortal Kombat, Resident Evil: Extinction). The cast does a good job all around and the special effects make-up isn't dreadfully corny and the Alpha wolf is somewhat intimidating and ferocious. I do hope Jackson becomes a werewolf hunter too, looks like he's headed in that direction though the scratches on his neck say other wise. Could he possibly be a wolf from a scratch and not a bite? I thought those went hand-in-hand...I'll guess I'll just wait and see.

If you haven't seen Teen Wolf, it's worth a look compared to the crap on MTV nowadays. It's Monday nights at 8/9c but they tend to repeat the aired episodes throughout the week, usually late.

Talk soon & take care all!

times do fly

Gaw! It's been almost a month since I've posted! How can this be so? Sorry, I've been busy the last month watching the non-stop Spike Star Wars saga marathons. And, guess what? There's another one this Fourth of July weekend! Another reason to find creepy meanings behind Yoda's senility!

Harry Potter's great legacy completes itself in 15 days and it's starting to sink in for me. The series of books and films have been a wonderful staple in my friendships for the past ten years. Every book launch and midnight show my group of friends and I would trek out and stay up all night for. We'd play games, tell jokes, and eat Bernie Bott's Every Flavor Beans (and I have gotten my share of booger flavored ones, but grass is worse IMO, oh wait, sardine is just disgusting). It'll be a shock if I don't tear up a bit at the final show, but I'm not positive if I''m even going. I usually not the one buying the tickets so I'll probably need to be looking into that soon... It has been a long ride and half my life so I can accompany much happy times to the bespectacled wizard. I'm not sure what group outings we'll do instead...maybe a book club? Always wanted to try one of those.

I want MTV to play more video blocks and less "16 and Pregnant". I don't think it's great that my generation gets bad pregnancy shows instead hours and hours of streaming music videos. Hell, I'd like VH1 Classic to play more video blocks. Only time they do is when no one is awake unless you are me who sleeps little because I'm an insomniac most days. I've become obsessed with this British band "Breathe" who became popular during the late 80s-early 90s era. They have these gorgeous ballads, some songs I've seen on VH1 Classic Totally 80s video blocks. I'm surprised they had minor success considering how powerful some of their songs are, they could have been hard hitters with the best. I've only heard a few songs but I'm going to check out their albums when I get a chance.

Here's their "Hands to Heaven" music video which I have the song repeat lately.

They truly embody the music I love from the 80s besides arena rock. A very talented group and I'm glad I came across them too.

I felt like I may have wanted to rant more but I think that's all folks!

cool breeze and all...

Oh boy, here comes the heat. I'm not very certain if I love summer or hate it. The warm sun always feels nice on my skin, but that dewy sheet of humidity that sheen it is unbearable. Summer is the time to get away from life, live in a mystery. It's vacation time, people. I'll probably go somewhere even against my will to say hidden from the public. It's a time to catch up on reading, my favorite thing. I'll spend half the day out on the porch or in the back yard on a lawn chair. Most people go to the beach, but I never do, personally never been one with laying half naked in front of a bunch of strangers.

Ugh, I'll finish this post later.